i walk into the room
pull out the chair
at the table
the chairs too small
i bang my knees as i scoot in
i reach for my plate
cute
it's already cut up
tiny bite sized pieces
tiny portions
looks like i'm gonna be hungry
my table mates also sit down
and immediately
noise
crying
complaining
griping
talking
they too, grab their plates
with tiny pieces, and tiny portions
and they hate it
they say its too much
too much
"i can't"
"i'll eat later"
tiny minds
Another room
Another table
Another chair
But this one is different
My table mates are already seated
Calmly
Patiently
Chatting
Real talk
I pull out a chair
My feet don't touch the ground
But at least my knees don't hit the table
At last
The food looks good
And I get to serve myself
But as I sit
Pink glass comes up around me
I'm there
But not really
one table -
too small
too loud
too childish
Another table-
Better option
Yet
I'm on the outside
I'd rather sit at the second table
to choose
what I eat
how much I get
but
blocked
separated
there
but not really
So next meal
where will I go?
where?
I don't know